First ramblings

So this is my first blog post although I have thought about writing one for several weeks. On most Sunday evenings I am given about 2 hours to just be alone with some quiet and most times that means time with God. I think this is the 4th week that I have had this time. The first 2 weeks were so powerful and amazing. I really felt GOd talking to me and it just felt awesome. Last week and this week I have just not had those same major moving feelings. I guess that is how it goes sometimes with our relationship with God and well with everyone in our lives. I am not sure if that is a good thing or not.
Since our feelings of moving to San Antonio happened back in the fall I have felt so close to God and it just feels awesome to be able to do what it is he wants us to do. I am so excited about the opportunities that he is giving us to be faithful and spread his word. This move out of all my moves has been the most peaceful and stress free. Although it carries with it the most to get done. There is the house to sell and jobs to find all at a time when no one is leaving there job and homes just aren't selling. But after 45 days on the market the home has sold and Jason has an great lead on a possible job and I feel headed in the right direction as well.
I know that I am rambling through this but that is sort of how I feel today. Kind of all over the place, tired, and just cranky. Strange way to feel when God has been blessing me and my family with all these amazing opportunities. I am really not sure what is going on. Pastor Brian talked today about what your red sea is. I was thinking and thinking about that and figured out that mine is my weight. I try and try, well sort of, to lose the weight but I always do something to sabotage my progress. I love the progress but at some point I decide that it is getting to much and too scarey and I make bad choices with my eating. I truly do not know what the block for me is that does not allow me to want to be thin. I keep reminding myself that this is the temple that God has given to me and that I need to take care of it. But on some days that doesn't even break through for me. While I have been writing this I am just getting more and more angry and I really have no idea why. I feel so frustrated and just mad and I really really wish that I knew why. So mad that I just geel like I want to cry. I just don't know what is going on. So I just prayed that I would get some direction on what the heck is wrong with me. Maybe it is that I am just tired and really not looking forward to getting back into the same ole same ole after spring break tomorrow. Also going to boot camp which I am not all that excited about either. Yeah there we go back to the weight thing! ok so this blog thing is not turning out at all like I had thought that it would. Oh well I am sure there is a reason for that. So until next Sunday....